Hey. So, my name is Elana Raquel Engelhardt. My last name means “angel hearted” in German but you will soon learn that it is not true all the time.
We will get in fights. I will say mean things to you and then kiss the pain away.
Sometimes I will forget or just not care that you have feelings because you have hurt mine.
That is just the kind of person I am. If you hurt me, I will find any possible way to hurt you more than you hurt me. But please do not hate me for it. I swear I do not mean a thing of what I say. I love you and I will find a way to make it better.
You do not have to have a lot of money for me to love you. My dad always told me to never depend on a guy for money. Money does not mean love. We can be in a shitty apartment eating ramen for a week and I will still be madly in love with you.
I want you to know that I am going to do everything in my power to make you happy. But, I won’t change for you. I love you but I have to love myself more.
I hope that you love kids as much as I do and will hold me while we watch a scary movie.
I hope that you will be okay with the fact that I want to get a puppy and a kitten and name them Milo and Otis.
I hope that you are as weird as I am.
I hope that you understand that I am not a coffee gal, green tea is for me.
I hope that I am one of the most important things in your life. Notice I did not say the most important thing. I just want to be up high on the list. In the past it always seemed as if I was second best. I don’t want that to be that way with us. And I doubt that it will be, I just want to make sure.
I hope that you will be okay with the fact that I rearrange my shit all the time.
I hope that you are okay with the fact that I have the mouth of a sailor. I have a filter, I swear I do.
But most importantly, I hope you love me as much as I love you.